I'm starting to think that RL and LJ have some kind of under-the-table deal: wherein anytime C is able to post on LJ and/or think things are going to be smooth going for a while, RL does promise to do it's best to drive her insane, make her sick, etc. Or something like that ;P

Since I last posted my son has hovered on the edge of being sick, that irritating cough/croup with all the sniffing/refusal to blow nose that five year old's do. (Dear god, hell must include the sound of your child sitting and watching TV while *sniffing* and *snorting* and basically *sucking snot* every 10-30 seconds. It's like Chinese Water Torture for mothers.) Not sick enough to take to the doctor, but sick enough to share his germs with his mother.

Thank you, son. :P

My brother was living about a 5 hour drive away, he lost his job, his friend that he was living with decided to move to another state, and he ended up apartmentless last week. So instead of me sleeping after working all night Tuesday I got to go on a fun road trip with my Mom and my daughter. (another thing, why is it when you get a new vehicle something immediately happens that requires you to drive a minimum of 8 hours round trip? this has happened with my last 3 cars and now my truck!) We made it back about 10:30, just in time for me to get to work almost on time at 11:00.

This made me cranky in addition to sick.

Because of my brother moving back in we had to shift some things around, and I ended up buying a new couch (and a recliner and a huge coffee table/ottoman hybrid that I love) and I already had a new rug, I just hadn't had the incentive to move stuff to put it down yet. So we spend the weekend moving furniture out and in, and cleaning, which strained my back. (And yo, furniture is *expensive*. And just how come my brother is car-less, job-less, and money-less, but he ends up with something brand-new to sleep on???) .

I am now sick, cranky, broke, and sore.

That was Sunday night, so of course on Monday, just to start things off right this week, I start my period. By now I've went quiet, and everyone kinda moves around me as quick as they can. If this was someone else I'd be laughing my ass off at them.

We're up to sick, cranky, broke, sore and *bleeding*.

Apparently my granny looked down and decided I'd had enough, so she must have taken an elevater down and arm wrestled the devil into leaving me alone since Tuesday, because most everything is better and alright now. It's almost Friday morning and there will be peace in my house this weekend if I have to get down and slap some bitches. (Really. I need it. The peace, slapping is too much energy.) And I want to work on my story and have it ready for next week.

So, how's things at your end? *sends hugs* (please send prayers and thank you's to my granny :D )

Fandom: BTVS (and some Angel mixed in later)
Author: i_luv_trees
Pairing: will be Spike/Xander, and minor pairings sprinkled in
Rating: R for some language and a tiny sexual reference
Summary: thinking about life

Note about cannon: totally up till Joyce's death, and then I'm going to parallel the rest of season 5 until Buffy's death, my story will be 'off-camera' mainly, until Buffy's death,*except* for changing the scene where Xan proposes to Anya.

This is the beginning of a story (still untitled) I’m working on, have been working on *forever*, the story is unfinished, but I will have more time to work on it now so I’m going to dive back in. I don't think I've ever put this out, but if I have my apologizes. It's new and improved, now!

Unbetad for the moment, please bring any mistakes to my attention.


Prologue Part One, Early evening November 18th, 2001

( He walks slowly through the cemetery, the pain in his left leg eased a little from walking on springy grass for a change instead of hard man-made surfaces. )

*Blows dust off lj and collapses from coughing*

Wow, time flies! It's been a long time since I put fingers to keys here. RL took over and although I've been online I've been lurking, mainly because I was checking out the Harry Potter fandom and my lurker instincts run deep. My grandmother had been ill, and alot of the past year has been spent with her. She found peace December 14th, and even though it was a blessing it's still been hard.

So I have been reading a lot of HP fic, I just haven't commented on much, which I plan to change now. I've found a very nice yahoo group called severussighs, and I'm going to join some HP lj groups to get back in the swing of things. I'm afraid HP has sucked me in totally, with occasional forays into SGA (season 4 and 5 just didn't go well for me, and they dampened my enjoyment). I still have my own Spike/Xander story I'm working on in the Buffy fandom, but I stopped reading other Buffy fic so it wouldn't influence my story, and RL kinda put a stopper in my efforts, but I think I might spend some more time on it now.

I'm going to be de-friending some of the Buffy communities except for Bloodclaim, but not any of my personal friends, so if I accidentally de-friend a personal lj let me know and I'll fix it. I hope to get in touch with my old lj friends, even if our fandom interests have changed.

So, anyone still around? Drop me a line and let me know what's up. I'll still probably be random, RL and all, but I'm here.

Hugs to everyone, C

Well, it's been awhile since I posted, huh? Actually, I've posted several times, but they've been 'eyes only', so I didn't realize how long it's been since I reached out and said hello to everyone. I've commented some, and sometimes not, just depending on my mood. I've been reading SGA mostly, and recently read my first Harry Potter fanfic. (Cambiare Podentes 1&2 by Jordan Grant at The Archive at the End of the Universe -I highly rec it, if you like HP and slash and sensual writing and 600 pages *each* part.) But though I mostly only read completed fic in SGA, I have several BTVS WIP's that I'm keeping up with, including Pivotal and Most Favored and Nothing the Same.
( Boring personal troubles )
I'm still working on my little story, I've opened a community and I'm posting parts there. I'm going to have people pre-read and tell me if it totally sucks or not, after I get it betaed. Make that 'after I finish the damn thing'! But putting it in it's own com kinda makes me want to work on it, I can't stand wip's that never get finished,so maybe I can motivate myself. The story is in my head, I just have to get it on the paper. And I've got the beginning and end, but some parts in the middle need uh, me to think about them.

And for some reason last week's SGA episode has totally inspired me (even though it *sucked*, and I want someone to write me fic with *Mckay* being kidnapped instead of Sheppard. But I got a funny feeling I'm going to end up writing something about it. (Damn it)

So, I'm still here, just depressed as hell and wishing my little girl was still a little girl. I'm so glad there are people out there writing such great stuff and putting it online. It's really saved my sanity lately.

So, I've been MIA since D*C, sorry guys, but I think my computer picked up a virus or something, and I'm going to have to send it to the computer doctor on Thursday when I get paid. I haven't been emailing and/or replying because I'm totally ignorant of how these things work, and if I do have one I certainly don't want to spread it. I can only start in safe mode, it freezes in regular mode and won't respond. Hopefully reading this on a friends page won't spread anything, if it is a virus. I have been reading, but I'm scared to comment, so after my computer is fixed I'll probably do some catch-up commenting.

Dragon Con was ***awesome***, I had the time of my life and other than a few glitches I enjoyed the hell out of myself. And it is confirmed now, I am a SGA fangirl. Buffy/Angel will always be my first, but being in a fandom where the show is still on is nice. For a really good con report go to girlpire's lj, she has written a great and funny account, with some wonderful pics. When my computer doesn't scare me so much I'll add my own little slices of fun. (But no pics, since my camera *broke* the first day I was there!!!!)

And here's my first SGA ficlet, the confirmation to myself that I am lost in the fangirl goodness. (Funnily enough, now that I'm reading so much SGA I've been more confident lately writing my S/X story.) But this popped in my head and I dashed it off in an hour or so, and if I spend time on it I'll never put it out there.



Title: Mirror, mirror, on my wall, where the hell did you come from!?
Fandom: SGA
Pairing: McShep
Rating: Adult, but more silliness than sex, sorry.
Summary: Just a bit of craziness one evening in Atlantis.


( The Story )

And sparrow2000 I'm glad you enjoyed your ballons, I hope your Birthday was a great day for you. I would have commented, but 'scared of my computer' thing happening.

I'm here, in Atlanta, I made it, through 8-9 hours on a train, then another 2 or so on a bus, another train, another bus, and *finally* to the motel!  I somehow missed the time zone change, from central to eastern, so even though it's 1:00 am to me it's midnight, and I'm so excited I don't know *how* in the hell I can sleep!!!

I am so totally ready to have fun, got off the phone with girlpire a little while ago, we're meeting up tomorrow, and she seems great, I'm sooo glad I decided to come.  (She's the reason I got the courage to come, I so owe her *bigtime*)  I can't wait to see James tomorrow, and Juliet (Dru) and the concert Sat nite!!!!   *And * I've gotten into Stargate Atlantis, and Jason Momoa (Ronon) is going to be here too *drools*, and I am just thrilled and nervous and excited to death.  Even though my car decided to *break down* yesterday in a Wal-Mart parking lot, I am not worried a bit (K, maybe a bit..)  but my most excellent and great and awesome mom is taking care of all of it for me, so that I can come here and party.  How much does my mom rock?  Answer:  Totally!

So, if anyone else is coming, or is here, drop me a line, comment, whatever, and we'll meet up!  Us slasher girls gotta stick together!

Happy, happy, happy.  I am happy.  :D 

Well, don't time just fly when you don't keep a sharp eye on it!  I have been shamefully absent and/or way too quiet lately.  But, RL just keeps on rolling, so I just have to keep rolling with it.  

Any whoo, I decided to post a piece of an extremely long and unfinished story I'm working on.  This part can stand alone, all you need to know is in my world Spike and Xander are sorta-friends when Buffy dies, at least a little more than was portrayed on the screen.  

Title:  Familiar Things
Author:  i_luv_trees
Pairing: pre-slash S/X
Rating: PG, just a few swear words
Summary:  Xander's thoughts while building Buffy's coffin, and some unexpected comfort. (Not morbid, I swear)
Timeline: Day or so after Buffy has died
Unbeta'd, just posting on a whim.  Any suggestions and comments welcome, yea or nay-ish.
x-posted to bloodclaim

 

( Read more... )

  
And Dragon*Con is coming. Finally!  I really, really, need a vacation!

Smooches to all, C

Things are rolling right along, and it seems like everytime I log on I see something good, like story updates, or good news for the friends, so Yay!  altyronsmakerthinks she remembers hearing Nicky might be coming to D*C- OMFG! If I see Nick and James at the same time I might not make it home!  (note to self- update will :)  Getting to see James is great, but, but , *both* of them. In the same *room* maybe.  My brain will overload with all the pervy thoughts!  Not gonna get too excited yet, I haven't seen it on the guest page, but OH MY GOD.  *whimpers*  *please???*

Just read denied_heaven's little mini concert/con report about her and nyghtpet, and - GAH!  They took pictures with James and he wanted them to *tickle* him.  Dear god, just go read it, I was grinning the whole time, and  I cannot wait to see those pics!!!!

Now that rl is good I'm finally getting somewhere with my writing, got a little Angel/Lindsey fic coming out, and some other stuff too, hopefully I'll get it together and out here.  mistress_tienis going to keep on me and make me get it going, I luv her for helping me out in between all her busy rl stuff she's got going. (And since S/X is my OTP please tell me why I keep writing Angel?  I've written A/Dawn, A/Buffy, and now A/Lindsey.  WTF is with me and my weird self? Oh well..)

orchidluv is going to continue her S/X story, going into season 3, and I am so happy she is.  I love Nothing the Same, and knowing I'll get to see more of her boys, just... makes me very happy!    And I reread wesleysgirl's Seeing Distant Things As If They Were Close, a S/X one-shot happening during the week or two right after Xander loses his eye.  Every time I read this one I just melt, it's a perfect little hurt/comfort piece that is so good!

Out of the SGA fics I've been reading Scenes from a Lesser War by Amireal is one of my new favorites, John/Rodney,  it has a really good plot twist, angst, and sex that grows into love.  A Better Fate by chelle is set on earth, also J/R, they come to stay with John's parents, and the angst just makes everything so bittersweet and good, but ending happy.  Balcony Sessions by Leah  has a scene where John has to shoot a Wraith that has Rodney, and it reminded me so much of a scene in Manifestation by Lazuli (my fav by her), not the exact same thing happening, but the same emotions raised, just some beautiful words and images in this one.  Ahh, now I'm wanting more SGA!  (and can you tell I'm a McShep-er? although I'm not opposed to Ronon anywhere in the mix :)

Ok, going to work on my stuff now, Squishes to all, C

ps anybody coming to D*C please let me know, I really, really want to meet as many of my lj friends as possible! 

Well, everything is going good on the RL front, work is good, I have my dragon*con ticket bought, JM concert ticket bought, hotel room reserved, and all that's left is to get my train ticket to *get* to Atlanta and I'll be set.  *Whee*  So everythings chugging along great.  

Um, except for a slight case of guilt.  See, I kinda spent the *entire* weekend reading Stargate:Atlantis fic.  I totally blame  kaygrr, she posted a *page* of recs (for anyone who wants to read some great stories the rec page is here:   ) and I couldn't resist.  Some great stuff, and I haven't read them *all* (yet), but... dear god, I just do not have time for another fandom.  That being said, I guess I'll have to make time, 'cause I'm now firmly a fan of the slashy SGA.  I've put up a good fight, but my friend  clockstopper writes SGA and I had to read it because I knew I'd like it. And I did, (she has a Sheppard/McKay/Lorne threesome that is *gah*) but I resisted actually *looking* for any other fics.  Just read hers cause she's my friend and I loved her BTVS fic and I knew I'd love just about anything she wrote.  

Then I found a beautiful little SGA fic on altyronsmaker 's lj (  )... and kay posted the recs...and I crumpled.  Like a crumply thing that's just been waiting for the next touch to prove how crumply it is.  I don't have time to go looking for more stories right now, but kay has promised more recs when I finish these, and I can't wait! So now I'll have two fandoms to obsess over.  Oh well, guilt's overrated.  I'll just enjoy the stories and wish I had even more time to read.

But right now I'm going to be watching season 1 of SGA.  I've got 1&2, and after reading all the great fic I really want to rewatch and look for the little slashy things I missed the first time I watched it, like I've done for every season of Buffy and Angel, which I also have on dvd.  :D

Hope everyone is doing well and having a great summer.  (And writing me lots and lots of smutty goodness)

(and sorry if this entry looks all wacky, I just don't know how to fix it) (and I'm watching SGA)  (someone should take away my parentheses privileges, huh :D )  (yes, I am insane, and it's lots and lots of fun)

I've been doing a lot online these last few days, talking with people, catching up on some fb I wanted to leave but haven't had the chance, checking stuff for dragon*con and reading and saving some great stories. I'm talking with  

denied_heaven tonight, who is just a doll, and I noticed my weird habit of saying *smooch* out loud. I'll be writing something and if I write *smooch* then I *have* to say it out loud. Like a compulsion or something. Annoys the heck out of my daughter when I'm at home, but that isn't necessarily a bad thing, it's a mom's job :P But the 'out loud' thing is weird, and it is total habit, instinct, I don't even notice it anymore almost. 

( me stuff and a little ranting about Angel season 5 )

The 'moving on now' thing after the silliness in Italy was very good, with them sitting together, sitting still, no matter what they said, but it so can be added to, explored, damn it some one write me a smutty scene set right after that moment, with more silliness mixed in, or give me a link to one! *Puppy eyes*

Ok, little rant over, happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

Oh and before I forget trepkos has finished her Spike/Riley fic, the only one I've ever read and said, yep, that could work, go and read and leave lots of love for all the hard work and beautiful words.
Hope everyone has a good day!

SQuuuueeeeeeeee!!!!

ok, glad to get that out!  I am going to dragon con in Atlanta, I am going to see James Marsters in concert, *wipes at drool* and real life is operating in the 'situation normal' mode. (Fingers crossed)  


But... then I came home and was reading online, and girlpire was asking on her lj if anyone wanted to go to the James Marsters concert at dragoncon, and god I wanted to go, but I was way too chicken to go by myself, but I told her yes anyway, and I've bought my ticket and am looking up hotel prices and O M F G, I'm going to my first con!  Is anyone one else on my oh-so-small f-list going?  Cause I am really excited to go and drool over James, but I am *so* looking forward to meeting fellow fans!  So, anyone?

There has been so much great stuff posted lately, *and* I've been stalking people's journals reading older fics.  (waves at altyronsmaker, denied_heaven, spikesfool, and mwrgana, to drop a few names)  Go stalk them too, it's more fun in groups!

toobusy2write is writing a Spike/Angel human au based loosely on the movie The Bodyguard, and OMG it is GOOD.  I prefer canon stories, but she takes my boys and just... I can't resist her, she is a fabulous writer!  

savoytrufflehas started a re-write of Angel season one with a gay Xander instead of Cordelia that is absolutely hilarious.  She writes some funny lines, I was reading it at work and got lots of funny looks because of all the weird snorts and noises I was making.  Angel and Xan are friends? (happy not-enemies, anyway) and she's promised it will have Spander later on. Whoo-hoo!  Her Doyle is spot-on in character, too.

Spander updates for thismaz's Blood on a Sundial (she's taking her time with it, building it slowly, bless her, I hope it takes *forever*, well, forever to get to the end, not to the sex ~g~),  wtf_is_shame's Xander-centric story continues the torture but there is some light shining at the end of the tunnel, sparrow2000's Memento Mori, I love her beautiful words so hard, orchidluv 's Nothing the Same (which I'm going to read tonight), and griefcounselingfrom Suki Blue and Amejesuto. The last two stories are coming up on the end *lalala, I am in denial* sigh!

A wonderful 6-part round robin story at spring_with_xan,  also there entrenous88updated her dirty!wrong!bad (but so freaking hot)  'Safer' series, no smut in this part, but the next one will probably scorch some eyeballs!, and fangrrl's little pwp, a deleted scene from her Unexpected series *did* scorch my eyeballs.  Another eyeball hazard was Bleed by virtualpersonaland nashmaveric, for the hot sex and the angst.

And if you like vampire lore go to mithril_56's Most Favored.  Spike/Angel, and has Gunn, Wesley, Ilyria, Dru and OMG it rocks!

So much goodness, so little battery power left, I mean... so little time, *time*  ~g~

Squishes to everyone, C

God, I really didn't realize it had been so long since I actually wrote in my own journal.  But life is still jerking me around something hard, so... (and stupid lj has ate about half the comments I tried to post the past two weeks)

( My still crazy and drama-filled life )
Somehow I've had time to rewatch season 5 of Buffy, with minimal fast forwarding.  I'm changing canon in my story on a very few points and I wanted to be sure  hadn't forgot something (which I had) and to refresh my mind about Spike's speech patterns.  I know that he's going to sound like an American speaking in English slang, but I'm trying to make him sound right.  Season 5 always fascinates me, especially when I watch Spike and Xander's interaction.  I know that by the last 3 episodes everyone was in a 'them against the world' mentality, but it always seems to me that we missed some significant moments between them.  The scene where Xan lights Spike's cigarette, I mean they are totally giving each other looks, and it's obvious they've bonded and ... well, I'm gonna fill it in, what *I* think we missed.  And I had totally forgotten how sweet the moment was when Willow goes to Tara after she becomes sane.  "I was so lost"  I love those two, and I totally teared up.  I miss my show so hard, has it really been 10 yrs? 

I've also caught up on some reading, esp some really good S/X ones.  Finally got to thismaz's Blood on a Sundial series and it rocks!  A great start, and the last few chapters have gotten really plotty, which I totally adore.  orchidluv's Nothing the Same is another plotty one, although the boys have come together in it (yah!).  I love that I've found such great ones lately that are telling a story, not just slapping the boys together with a tube of lube and a prayer.  (Although those are good, too :)   But I really need the 'Calgon, take me far, far away' right now, and I'm getting some really good doses of it.  Leaves of Memory by quinntzadok, is another great S/X pre-chip story.  (hmm, everyone's writing pre-chip and I'm writing chipped, go figure!  I'm always the oddball.)   She's writing the next parts right now and I can't wait to read them.  sparrow2000is continuing her Memento Mori story, some very, very good stuff, and she's started the road trip sequel to her Perceptions series, called Diversions.  Squeeee!
mithril_56 is a newbie to LJ, but I found her story Most Favored at the Crypt months ago and loved it, it goes into the vampire lore, which is a favorite thing for me.   83 chapters up, and she's going to re-post them on her LJ. It's Spike and Angel, with Illyria, Wes and Gunn post-NFA, and it is awesome, really goes into Spike and Angel's issues and what shaped their relationship.  girlpire has posted the first 2 out of 4 or 5 of a Spike/Angel story called Friday that is some of the best S/A I've seen lately, set season 5 of Angel.
And mwrgana did a manip of Spike in faded (almost white) blue jeans that I just died for.  Hit one of my major kinks with that pic, it's Mr. June on her calendar manips. 
 
Sleepy now, time to pass out for a few hours.  (and it's 1:00 am and my son just came in here to get me to go to the potty with him.  He's going number 2 at this hour?  He's *never* done this before.  Maybe I've been just a little *too* excited and happy that he's finally almost potty-trained!?)

Squishes to all, and to all a good nite!

Well, one day I will get around to making my lj look the way I want it too, and use my new banner.  One day. ~g~

sooo, I haven't been around as much as usual, so I was totally clueless about the recent 'wank' that happened until yesterday.  And to be totally honest, I don't know everything, just what I saw on some people's lj's and some lj communities.  Kinda sad about so much  controversy over something that is intended to be an escape from RL, at least that's the way I see fanfic.  

I don't like the friends lock thing.  I have used it myself, a little, but mainly to keep an unfinished story out of public view, 'cause it's not done.  Once it is I'm going to post it.  Because I'm writing my story(s) for me, to put down my version of what I wish had happened.  And that's what fanfic is, each author's little I-wish world.  Some I like, some I don't, but if they weren't there my life would be much less happy.  So I'm going to share my I-wish world, and hope it makes someone else happy, and maybe even decide to add their own little story to fanfic.  The more the merrier, and the more to chose from, the better.

(I understand some people's need to keep some stories out of the reach of children, that's fine.  Post your story somewhere there is an age requirement, and hope that parents are monitoring their children's internet viewing. Cause that's what their parents job is, not yours. IMO, as the mother of a 15 yr old girl.)

Just some ramblings in my way too weird brain.  No story recs, I've been rereading some old faves again, but damn did I miss Grief Counseling on Monday! 

Hugs to all, C

So..., I started this entry on May 9th, and I wanted to figure out how to post my new LJ banner and wallpaper fullsize, so I saved it and intended to finish it later that day.  But my uncle died of a heart attack, so I've been doing the family thing.  My uncle and my dad, who died about 5 years ago were my granny's only two children, and it's really hard on her right now.  Anyway, I've been reading some but not commenting much, I kinda feel guilty reading smut when all this is going on, even though I know I need me-time so I won't go totally insane.  And I've been writing in spurts, and then going totally blank, it's just a weird time right now.  But anyway I felt like I needed to finish this, so here's what I wrote.  (Funny the difference a few days makes in how you feel when you post.)


May 9th entry
I bid on a graphics pack at Sweet Charity a little while back, and my pretties are here, and they are just beautiful!

                   


And my new default Spike/Xander in the rain icon!  Just so damn pretty.  My Charity Ho was Talula, and it feels really strange to write down that I have a ho. ~BG~  She also made me a LJ banner and stunning wallpaper: 








Aren't they pretty?!?!  Squeeee! (I hope you can click on them to see full size, I tried to do the linking thing right.)

So I haven't been around much, suffice to say RL has kicked my ass lately.  But I have found some great stories that I've enjoyed reading, when I was awake. 


And just a note, ok, maybe a little bit of a rant, I wish people would stop friend locking their journals.  I know that they have reasons, but it seems like I find someone who writes great stuff and they decide to flock or I find references to great stuff and when I visit their journal it's flocked.  I don't like to push myself on people, so I don't friend without permission, and it just pisses me off that some people are so rude that it makes great writers feel the need to flock.  Spoils things for everyone, and if new people come into the fandom, (hell, I've only been here on lj since Feb myself) they will miss out on some great stuff.  I just saw sexymermaid's post that she's flocking and I almost cried.  I hope she puts her stories somewhere that new people can find them, 'cause she is one of the reasons I started reading slash in the first place.  Just a little ranting, I feel better now.  Hope everyone out there is doing ok, I'm gonna try to get back in the swing of things now that work has calmed down a little.

Missing everyone, C

Ya know, I read a lot, good stuff, bad stuff, makes me cry, makes me laugh, makes me horny, and even sometimes makes me stop for a minute and think about something I'd never considered before.  And what is really funny to me is that my work as a front desk clerk for a mid-class motel brings me into contact with some fascinating people, and situations that you don't think you'd ever encounter outside the cover of a book or the click of another web page.

Case in point: just checked in a gentleman who needs a room because his house, located about 4 blocks up the road, just burned down.  And that's not the bad news.  He and his wife had just gotten back from a hospital out of town where their ten-year-old grandson had gotten out of surgery.  Was in a car wreck and the seat belt apparently dug into him and opened up his stomach.  I looked into this poor man's eyes as he is telling me this and standing there waiting on his credit card to be approved, and the absolute tiredness, shock, it was just all in his eyes, just hanging on him like an overlay of ..numbness?. You could *see* it in every movement.   I mean, imagine getting the news of an accident, the frantic race to get to the hospital, then the soul-numbing waiting, and finally the slight relief in being told that all your grandson's intestines are now back inside where they belong, the tired drive back to your home, knowing that tomorrow you'll be on the road again. Only, when you get there fire trucks are blocking the way, all your neighbors are on their front lawns, and your fucking house is burning.  What singled out this particular family, so that when god decided to take a piss he *really* made sure they were just soaked?  Sometimes I wonder about life and all the things that happen, things that people coast past like speed bumps and some things that just make you want to lie down in the middle of rush hour traffic.  Life's funny sometimes.  And I think far too hard about sadness maybe because I've not had any really bad things happen for awhile so I get paranoid and wonder when it's gonna be my turn.  Just some ramblings from my twisted brain tonight. I think too damn much and babble too incoherently about it.

Note to self: no posting during 16 hour shifts, brain cells are not in correct operating order.

So happy it's Friday!  Sunday=12 hours. Monday=12 hours. Tuesday=8 hours. Wednesday=16 hours. Thursday=12 hours. And beautiful, lovely, wonderful Friday=0 hours. (And Saturday=0 hours, but I'm too happy about today to care yet :)  All I have to do is make it through 16 more hours on this Sunday and its back to the normal 8 hours a day!  Whoo-hoo!  Confetti and all that fun celebrating stuff!

My co-worker came through her surgery well, just the annoying recovery part to get through now.  And we've hired a former worker who *knows what she's doing* to work in her place for the next few weeks/months, so no awkward having to break in/help a new person.  More whoo-hooing!

I've spent the morning trying to catch up on my comments for all the fab stories that I've been reading.  I've tried to comment as I read, but I have a quirk (read annoying) that I can't just say 'Good story', or 'well done'.  Nothing wrong with the short comments at all, just I cannot do it, I've tried and no go.  If I'm going to give fb I want to let the person know what I liked about their words.  Since I've been reading with my brain just aware enough to enjoy the story but not coherent enough to write something down usually, I've got quite a few to reread and give love for.  And now I'm hoping I don't forget something so I'm checking my history and going to each story and checking if I left the love.  (Read=guilt if I forget someone.)  And damn there has been some great stuff this week!  

Something I don't want anyone to miss: go to  http://shadowscast.livejournal.com/88738.html?view=1024674  just a fabulous idea for a story, whether you love/hate the season 8 comics. (Or haven't even read them yet, like myself ~g~)  Encourage this great idea!

Going to sleep some and tomorrow *drum roll* write! (I hope.  I'm having a stern talk with the muse today and telling her that we *are* going to finish the ficlets.)  And I'm going to play with the horrible colors on my LJ, make it less hard on the eyes.

It's good to be awake!  Going to post lots of recs later today.  And enjoy the state of no-work!

Please excuse my funny lookin' journal for the next few days.  I'm playing around with the colors trying to decide what I like and I just can't make up my mind.  My coworker with the heart troubles is having triple bypass surgery this morning, so any good wishes for her are appreciated, we're hoping that everything goes smoothly for her.  But with her being out for so long that means that my long work hours are not going away anytime soon so there's no telling when I'll be posting again.

The whole reason I decided to make time to post this morning is to squee over an update that I had almost given up hope of seeing.  At the Love That Dares site (http://www.squashduck.com/ltd/spikeangelmain.htm) Lady Moluk has a page+ of the best Spike/Angel stories ever written.  If I could only read one author's stories for the rest of my life  would choose hers over any of I've ever read, including 'published authors'.  I visit her site about once a month and read a few while I check for an update to her last story in a trilogy called Dark Domain.  Well, yesterday I was on the site rereading another story and I didn't check first thing for an update, I was so busy reading.  I clicked on the wrong link and it took me to a page I hadn't seen before (and believe me I've looked at every page on the site more than once), so I got a funny little flutter in my stomach thinking maybe she was updating, and sure enough when I checked *THE NEXT PART WAS UP*  Squuuuuuueeeeeeeee!  It's only the first part, but I love it.  She has a grasp of words and uses them to paint the most beautiful pictures I have ever read.  And her Spike and Angel are *real*, not just a continuation of Joss's characters but something on a whole other level.  The only regret I have is that she said on her update page that she's moving into another fandom, the 'OZ' prison series that was on HBO.  I'll probably go with her, just to read her stories, and I have never, ever been tempted to do that with any other writer.  I've read some crossover and a little SGA stuff, but I've never even *seen* this show OZ and I'm still probably going to go.  Her words are just that good, to drag a die-hard Buffy/Angel fan into something totally new.  I am a firm believer that people should write what makes them happy, but for god's sake please go read her stories and give her love and remind her that Spike and Angel still have stories that she just hasn't written yet.  I had tears in my eyes when she said in the update section that she was probably moving on from S/A.  Just read them if you haven't yet and spread the word.  Please!

Still squeeing, C

I'm so happy!  One of my best friends moved a 2hr drive away last ,oh, October I think, and I've missed the hell out of her.  But she showed up for a visit and she's moving back into town, yah!!  Oh, and she's PREGNANT!  I'm so happy for her, she's having a girl, and I'm still all whoo-hoo about it!  I really meant to have the second part of Rainy Morning Rituals done today but I've been gossiping and catching up on stuff, so maybe by this weekend it'll be done.  It's from Spike's pov and for some reason writing him intimadates me, maybe because he's my favorite of the boys and I want to get him right.  And there has been so much good stuff written in just the 2 days I've been busy, I'm reading and commenting like crazy trying to catch up.  For some damn reason the wireless at work wasn't working last night so I couldn't surf there, annoyance, hopefully it'll be back up tonight.  And now I'm running out the door to pick up my son from daycare and go gossip somemore, god I missed my girl...

mistress_tien, will be back to spamming you soon doll, and hope you enjoy Spike's dirty talking, my muse has been thinking about it really hard, if I can just break that silly can't-write-porn-at work-thing I'll have it done tonight!  *throws confetti everywhere and crosses fingers* 
Peace, out, C